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do you ever get into one of those moods that just dont seem like there is any way to get out of? well thats been me lately haha. like i find myself being really pessimistic alot of times and im really trying not to be and plus i just want to be kept out of all the drama that goes on . like i try to see the good in things but sometimes i just dont see the good all i can see is the bad. like Prom is coming up and honestly i dont really care what the group is doing , i mean me and my date will have fun no matter what we do. i think it'll be fun no matter what.
lately there has just been people that have just had their sneaky way of ruining things ...its quite amazing haha. like sometimes when y ou just sit back and watch all the stuff that goes on around you its amazing what you see.... thats what i have been doing at school lately , im just tired of getting wrapped up in the stuff that goes on at school.
One of those things that does make me in a better mood is knowing that somebody special thinks about you and cares about you. it really really makes my day. he really does make me smile. but i have handed our relationship over to God and whatever happens will happen.he has a plan for each one of us.
but this has been plenty long enough ...so im heading off to power nap ..toodle lou.
love you-sarah
p.s-Prom is soooooooo completely overrated lol
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SCREW YOU! - YOU KNOW WHO YALL ARE.
p.s- dont fool yourself into thinking
that you intemidate me, because you dont!
I could be mean
I could be angry
You know I could be just like you
I could be fake
I could be stupid
You know I could be just like you- i love it when you find lyrics that match the exact mood you're in
Sorry for that moment, it just makes me
FEEL BETTER
TO YOU:THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME. IM SOOO GLAD THAT WE ARE GOOD FRIENDS. - that applys to many of you.
these made me smile: "sarah, that pen is way too happy...." lol
" he has worse mood swings than a girl" lol
"uhhh yea... about that ..."
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do you ever have those days where you just feel like nothing you did mattered to anybody? like you werent pretty enough, you werent goofy enough , or you just werent smart enough? or that it seemed like you were sort of invisible to the world today? all those sort of apply to the way i sort of felt today. i mean i dont really know what was wrong like i had a WONDERFUL weekend and i spent it w/ special people and i tried to keep those thoughts in my head all day but it didnt really work haha. i have had the worst hair ache of my entire life the last two days its worse than a tooth ache. but enough of my complaining life is going pretty good im sooooooooooo ready for summer though. but anywys i have alot to do but ill talk to you cool folks later bye! love, sarah
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wow, what a wonderful weekend. i honestly dont know what i would do without my wonderful friends. i love yall dearly.
well friday i ended up not going to school but i went out with my mom which was exicting. i love her even though we may have our disagreements shes like one of my best friends lol i tell her like everything because i know she wont get mad at me (hannah ..lol) but after we got done we just went home and stayed there for the rest of the night.
Saturday i was woken up by the wonderful heather lol. we went to the mall got some stuff went back to her house and watched "our movie" (rush hour 2) wonderful movie. then brayden came over there to pick a paper that i had , played some pool thats about it. Then i went home vaccumed out my car really fast and then met mariah,marissa,alleta,timmy, and katie over at mariah's house then we went to the mall and target and then went to the concert michael met us there. Then me,marissa and michael decided to go out to the car and talk it was fun good conversations lol (marissa "it was too hot" ) and then we went back inside and then me and michael went out to the car and talked.
Then this morning i TOTALLY forgot about the time change thank goodness for mariah calling lol so i hauled it over there to her house but we made it on time!!!! yes. lol church was good. so thats basically my weekend in a nutshell. have a good rest of your sunday!
love yall,
sarah
P.s - thank you to all who made my weekend the best! i love yall
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IM SOOOOO BORED ! AHHHH
TEN random things about me-
10. i sleep alot..
9. i love driving my car (its relaxing)
8. my birthday is soon
7. i love all my friends
6. i get my braces off tuesday ..yay! lol
5. i can cook cornbread muffins!
4. i like to play dress up in my free time lol haha( leslie and deanna ; )
3. im left handed !
2. i hate english
1. i love to snuggle
NINE ways to win my heart-
9. be really easy to talk to
8. believe in God
7. hold me close
6. be flirty (w/ me lol)
5. be able to keep my feet warm
4. hold my hand
3. has to have a sense of humor
2. be able to laugh at himself
1. snuggle
EIGHT of my favorite movies-
8. The Notebook!
7. The Replacements
6. Both SHanghai movies
5. Pirates of the Carribean
4. Pretty Woman
3. ACE VENTURA! (i love it)
2. ELF
1. City of Angels
SEVEN things that annoy me-
7. snobby people
6. lying
5. people who pull out in front of me and go slow
4. nagging
3. hypocritical people
2. it being cold one day and then sort of warm the next
1. being sick
SIX things I wanna do before I die-
6. get married
5. fall madly in love
4. BE REALLY HEALTHY
3. go to europe
2. go to jamaica
1. affect somebody's life in a good way
FIVE things I am afraid of-
5. bad weather
4. getting hurt (feelings)
3. loosing some-1 close to me
2. dying
1. being alone
FOUR of my favorite items in my room-
4. my pictures
3. my pillow
2. my cd's/cd player
1. my bed
THREE things I do everyday-
3. eat
2. sleep
1. breathe
TWO things I want to do right now-
2. go do something!!!!!!!!!
1. tell someone how I really feel
ONE person I want to see right now-
1. theres alot of people
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ok well today is tuesday , this week seems to be going by pretty fast, thank goodness.
- things at school have started to settle down (its about time) haha. but even though they did apologize it still seems sort different. like i mean once your trust is broken w/ somebody like that its really hard to just say yea i forgive you dont worry about it. i mean im not going to hold a grudge but i guess its just gonna take some time.
- lately i have been having a really hard time trying to get focused on my school work , which isnt good at all.... i've been trying to think of something motivating but nothing comes to mind
- i cant wait to get a SUN TAN!!! i also cant wait to get a new bathing suit either yay! i have a good feeling about spring break this year , hope fully it will be wonderful!
- you know those people who are put in your life and just like everytime you talk to them even if its not anything important they just make your day. i just to say thank you to those who do that i dont know how i would get through school without them ...love ya bunches
- mmmmmmmmm....... should i or shouldnt i? *****
well toodles,
love you! sarah
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-well its that time again.nothing too exciting at school right now. went out with hannah last night for our weekly date lol . its always a wonderful time!im glad that we are really good friends. (like the best lol) some things at school are really starting to affect me i guess you could say. like i've begun to realize how important trust is in life. like i find myself worrying when i talk to people if they are actually telling me the truth or if they are just talking to me because they have no else to talk to and i worry about if they are going to go talk about me. like i mean if you do have something againist me i rather you come up to me and tell me about it rather than go and spread false things. like sometimes i feel like im in an empty room by myself yelling but nobody is listening.
- on the other side i feel like im doing alot better in school i am more focused on my school work.
- with the boy thing. i just dont feel like getting involved with anybody right now. i just dont think its the best thing for me right now , and when i do i want it to be something serious not just a little fling. i pray that God will bring the right person for me when i am ready. i cant wait! haha
hopefully fun and exciting things happen this weekend ..im looking forward to it- haha
i hope all of yall have a GREAT! day tomorrow!
love ya bunches,
sarah
p.s- i had vallarta's tonight , i love the people there , they seriously make my day!
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this is probably going to sound really mean , but the people who have a problem with me SCREW YOU! becuase i probably dislike you too. i am soooo sick and tired of dealing with stupid east hill drama its not even funny. people really need to grow up and be mature. and you really need to get your facts straight before you go screwing up people's lives just because you think your life is more important. and its not so get over yourself.
on another note i really aprreciate all my TRUE friends. i love yall dearly lol.
and im sorry that it sounded mean but it since no one really reads this anymore i felt that i needed to vent.
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i honestly wonder how life would work without drama sometimes..i swear it feels like people never grow up.
.1) before you get mad at somebody you really need to the true facts..
.2) dont say your somebody's "good friend" and go spread rumors about them and then when confronted about it bold face lie (thats really cute)
.3) if it doesnt involve you ...dont worry about it!
.4)dont say things you dont mean...it does more damage in the long run.
these past few days have been really really annoying and frustrating. so i just felt like venting .
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I really dont understand life sometimes... like the one guy that i think i want i cant have and it makes me sick.. like it seems like we are just playing mind games w/ each other and its just getting old. its the same ole thing everyday w/ him. so i give up, i kno i need to stand back and let God handle it but its just sorta difficult sometimes.. UGH!...maybe im just destined to be single FOREVER! lol jk, whatever is ment to happen will happen, but its soooooooo hard to believe that sometimes...somebody will end up getting hurt either way .. UGH... it was sort of an overall sad day today. Today was Johnathan Griders last day. I know many people dont really see what Johnathan brought to our class(and i will admitt that i havent always seen it either) but he has many cool things to share and i really dont think people really noticed it. but i will miss him and i hope he has fun at his new school. (Good luck-if your reading this) i have many things im feeling right now so im seperating them into seperate parts...but lately i know i havent been a really good friend and i want to apologize to those who i have failed. i do love all my friends very deeply and im gonna try to be a better friend to those people! Today when Mr.ROllwagen read John's "senior/JUnior Bio , it sort of struck me ...like wow im going to be a senior next year..its like when u were younger you sort of looked up to the juniors and seniors (in my opinion) and it freaks me out knowing that next year will be my last w/ the people who i have sooo many memories with... it will definately be a sad time but also a happy one also... sigh... Do you ever have the feeling of your trying to put on a show for soo many people you loose track of who you really are..i duno...sometimes it feels like im in an open area talking and nobody is really listening but maybe its just me. who knows? well woa ..that was a really really really long one. but it makes me feel better so ya. i hope yall have a great christmas break!!!!! much love, SArah!
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i know no-1 ever comment anymore, but im using this just to express feelings ...
what makes a good friend? .......
what does " i love you" actually mean now-a-days?
does anyone ever reach a perfect state of happiness?
just a few questions that have been going through my mind .....
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This definately has been a really exciting Thanksgiving break. i have loved every minute of it! (except a few bits and pieces.. but o well who cares!)
tuesday and friday night-dedicated
* sarah, your dad probably thinks its weird , he saw me in my bra! ....wait what?!
* lets just go naked ...with socks on! ..or not
*dress-up duels
*impeachment
*roll-out
* deanna you r my favorite nerd EVER!
*how would u wanna get asked out?
*dancing in the car
* bright lights!
* omgosh the MEXICAN MAN! I CANT BELIEVE I FELL FOR THAT! lol
* i told you i come alot ..lol
*ice creme
* "spooning"-kirby lol
* are you sleeping in your clothes?
* indoor soccer
* cell phones ringing.... lol
* the rap CD's lol
* we are soooo ghetto
*not being able to park
* "i only hear this song when im w/ you!"
* woa! theres a car there
and sooooo many more.... i love you 2 both!
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and to bekah ... lol
* im not getting up that early!
*what would i be called," big woodcock?"
* just dont answer!
* omg! its soooo cold
*saaaarrraahh .....i lost my sock!...ok i dont care
*bekah warm my toes
* get your toes outta my crack ...lol
* FO HEAD!
* you have to pick up autumn at 8! what time is it 7:50 ..well we have a crisis
* how do u know how cold it is..i can tell you ...hell has offically frozen over...
* party of 8 ...actually 3
* can u believe she took my CD?
*SHOTGUN!
* are you hungry ? woa me too i dont know how
* the birds! CLOSE THE WINDOWS
* the fan on high and the windows open
* do you hear my snot? thats from you!
* sarah , i need another comforter.. u already have 8 ....
* I learned my cold heartedness from bekah ... no i learned it from you ......
and my ULTIMATE FAVORITE!!!!!!!!!
* THE BLACK MAN WITH THE NEWSPAPER AND THE BIRDS!!!!!!!! lol hahahahahaha
I LOVE YA!
THanks to everyone who made my THANKSGIVING sooo wonderful . I LOVE YALL!
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this is going to be my "sadie hawkins update"... sadie hawkins was alot of fun and i enjoyed going w/ the person i went w/ we had fun so its cool. After sadie hawkins some of us went out to TCBY and got some ice creme it was really good. and by then me and hannah mc. were extremely hyper ...its was crazy , too crazy to put into words. lol.it was alot of fun .
alot of things have happened lately. i have met alot of cool people lately and have gotten closer to the ones that i do know. we have our 1st soccer game tomorrow and i am EXTREMELY EXTREMELY nervous and anxious. the only bad thing is that i have to dress up AGAIN! UGH. lately i have been trying to "soak" up all the good memories and ect that happens but it seems like it is flying by soo fast.
i have been learning alot of new things lately , if you just learn to sit back and watch your own surroundings things that you never seemed to notice , you start to notice. i think this year is going to be a "growing experience" that prob sounds cheesy... sry. haha.
next subject... this morning was a really scary morning..with all the rain , i dont think i've ever been that nervous driving , i had water like up to my hood this morning i was just praying that i would make it alive to school w/o my car or myself or anyone else getting hurt. Hopefully it doesnt rain tomorrow haha.
well i best be on my way. i love you all o sooo much (lol *dedicated* lol)
BE BLESSED! and every1 come to the soccer game , tomorrow at 6 at ashton bro.
Sarah.
p.s- how beautiful we could all be if we just stopped trying......
o yea one more thing..... do think it would be sort of sucky if i did my persuaive speech on abstineance? or would it be too big of a cliche? ur ideas would be greatly appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!
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~When you were born you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die the world cries and you rejoice. -Cherokee Proverb
~An inch of time is an inch of gold, but you can't buy that inch of time with an inch of gold. -Chinese Proverb
~An inch of time is an inch of gold, but you can't buy that inch of time with an inch of gold. -Chinese Proverb
~What you don't see with your eyes, don't invent with your mouth. -Jewish Proverb
Everything is funny as long as it is happening to somebody else.
Will Rogers
A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked.
Author: Bernard Meltzer
A lie gets halfway around the world before the truth has a chance to get its pants on.
- Sir Winston Churchill (1874-1965)
We must stop talking about the American dream and start listening to the dreams of Americans.
If I'm not back in five minutes.. wait longer - Jim Carrey
Yo, rugman, haven't seen you in a few millenium, give me some tassel!
- Aladdin
I'm gettin' kinda fond of you, kid. Not that I wanna pick out curtains or anything! - Geenie
It seems the role of Al will now be played by a dark, sinister, ugly man.
Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light.
I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.
Sarah Williams
I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
John Burrough
Enjoy your own life without comparing it with that of another.
Marquis de Condorcet
The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.
Helen Keller
When a new day begins, dare to smile gratefully.
When there is darkness, dare to be the first to shine a light.
When there is injustice, dare to be the first to condemn it.
When something seems difficult, dare to do it anyway.
When life seems to beat you down, dare to fight back.
When there seems to be no hope, dare to find some.
When you're feeling tired, dare to keep going.
When times are tough, dare to be tougher.
When love hurts you, dare to love again.
When someone is hurting, dare to help them heal.
When another is lost, dare to help them find the way.
When a friend falls, dare to be the first to extend a hand.
When you cross paths with another, dare to make them smile.
When you feel great, dare to help someone else feel great too.
When the day has ended, dare to feel as you've done your best.
Dare to be the best you can At all times, Dare to be!
Steve Maraboli
*~just a few thoughts before i go to bed luv yall!*~
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"For I am poor and needy , and my heart is wounded within me. I fade away like an evening shadow ; I am shaken off like locust. My knees give way from fasting; I am an object of scorn to my accusers; When they see me, they shake their heads. Help me , O Lord my God." - Psalm 109: 22-26
"Spent too many hours holding up walls
standing in corners and clenching my jaw
watching you watching the ones that I wanted to be."- Further Seems Forever.
Many things have been happening lately... im in one of those deep thinking moods. Lately i have felt like im in a glass box looking at everyone on the outside, its weird. lately it seems to me that i've been more consumed in myself which is a really bad thing. my relationship w/ God isnt anywhere where it should be....i just feel soo confused and so distant. so if i say anything mean to you i really dont mean it so im sry..i miss alot of the relationships that i used to have w/ people, but i guess people and things change.
on a positive note- I HAD SMOKEY'S FOR DINNER!
GOd, direct my paths and let your will and not mine be done!
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im sooo happy to have power back....well i was really surprised about how bad the hurricane turned out to be. we stayed in our house and it was really scary, like the house was like viberating.... i put on my head phones and turned it up really loud and tried to sleep. when it turned daylight it was like a warzone like we couldnt even see our concrete outside, it was mess. but im j/ really glad we still have a house. it was really cool to see everyone in our neighborhood come together and help everyone out by cutting trees and branches. but im sorta kinda ready for school to see all of my friends. but i gotta go do some laundry...toodles
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i honestly believe that some people are COMPLETELY and totally blowing this whole hurricane outta porportion i mean i understand that its a big hurricane. Sometimes i think if the news people kinda reassured people in a calm way that things wouldnt get so hectic. i mean im getting ansy and nervous of this storm bc of what everyone has been saying. and another thing that makes it bad is that i feel like its j/ sitten there waiting to explode... i mean if its gonna come , come it seems like its taking forever and each day it inches closer people get even more crazy. today me and my sister went to pizza hut and on our way we found out that the city i guess took down some street lights ...heaven forbid somebody take traffic signs down it seems like NOBODY! can drive w/o traffic lights i mean if u have a green like but not a green turn arrow u can still turn if there are no cars...i mean come on! lol i sorta hope we dont miss too much school bc then we have to make it all up and then it will take out of like christmas and fall break and spring break and ect. and this might be j/ a "now" thought but sometimes it sorta gets on my nerves when some people talk to you and all they say and all they talk about is their new b/f or g/f i mean i think its cool and stuff but i dont want the whole conversation to be about the new flavor of the week or something ..... that prob sounds mean but im sry. (but again that could j/ be becuase im sorta stressed out????....) On a different note i talked to some people i havent talked to in a while which was cool talking to them and catching up on old times! im gonna miss all my friends who evacuated..... and then i also feel like im growing apart from people that i love and who were always there. i think i j/ "need to get my head back into the game" lol . WOW! this was a big entry.... but im leaving haha so i hope u all stay safe and dont get blown away or struck by lightening during the hurricane. Keep your fellow neighbors in your prayers yall will be in mine! love, SArah
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well life has been pretty i guess u could call it eventful.. im pretty tired of hearing about this hurricane i mean ya its big but keeping it to about 2 channels and not every single one of em would be better.i owe some1 a big apology and i j/ wanna say im sorry.. and that i kno i deserve to be single forever. and another somebody else is mad at me because i didnt tell him my secret, my comment to that is "aaww poor baby" lol (bekah). i really enjoyed melissa's speech today lol . im really dreding my speech its gonna be bad... ugh. but i think im done spilling my guts so (my favorite quote from back to the future) i am gonna make like a tree and leave lol!
love,
Sarah
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i decided to update because its been a while since i have. well.... school is goin ok i guess (considering it being school and all haha) nothing too exciting. i am still pretty amazed at how much some people have changed ( which for some thats a good thing and a bad thing). Friday night me and bekah went to get our eyebrows and nails done, all of that whole situation was sorta weird but it was still fun getting to hang out w/ her. Saturday i went all over God's green earth to get everything needed for my sister's 18th birthday that night then after all that i went to the party and it was pretty fun...enough about saturday . Sunday i woke up and went to church but i had to take my sisters car bc my car is still broken , i had to pick up mariah which was fun. went to big church and then to sunday school and then afterwards i thought only a few people were going to go to shanghai buffet but i was wrong and it was like the 11th grade ( boys and girls) . it was alright , i got to know josh and jamie better which was really nice. after that we left and i took marissa and mariah back to their house .... that was an extremely fun trip home lol . then i came home and tried to go to bed but i didnt really sleep that well......but thats about it so ill talk to yall later
love,
~*SaRaH*~
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